Firstly I wanna wish you a happy birthday!
Hope that you can change for the better soon... :)
An advice from a friend;
Try to bring yourself closer to Allah,
I am not someone who is inclined in this area but all I know is that
to make that happen, you should start by trying to do the 5 prayers...
Doa is a must cause do you dare to even say that you did nothing wrong today ?
Absolutely no.
You yourself know that u need guidance, comfort, security and such...
I felt that, in my honest opinion, you have the comfort and security so it is up to you
to make him feel secure...(him, not HIM)
If you were really aware and trying to put in effort, what's with the entry on your blog, 2 posts ago ?
Drinking wine is already wrong, posting pics of it, gooossshhhh...
So, contradictions, contradictions...
I should stop here and my reason for starting because I couldn't keep it to myself...
If you were trying to say that I myself am not perfect, I accept that and yeah,
I miss my prayers too.
You can say that I'm a hypocrite but I noted that you should TRY to do the 5 prayers...
try to get what I'm trying to say first ok ?
Happy Birthday to you...
watever it is, remember that its:
dontevershooshme